My Life...It's All Good

I'm finally working full-time again after surgery. In the time was down for surgery, I did a lot of reflecting. I thought I would share some of these observations. Some of them are pretty obvious and some aren't new to me (or to you), but they are things that have been on my mind.  God is faithful. Not everything has gone according to my plan or my time, but He has been with me every step of the way and carried me through to the other side.  Cancer is not the end of the world. I thought it was when I first received the diagnosis, but I now realize you can hear those words and make it through. I know some people have different results because their cancer is found at a different stage or it's a different type. This is my experience.  The small stuff I used to sweat doesn't have the same impact on me. I know there are bigger things at which to aim my focus and most of the small stuff doesn't rank. That's not to say I don't freak out about stuff, but now ...

I seem to be in a fog lately. I don't know if it's the after surgery fog, the new med fog, or the it's just taking me a while to get back to "normal" fog. I just know my brain is not working like it did before my surgery or at least not as quickly. That's not a good thing.  I'm hoping I will soon feel like my old self, but I don't know if that will ever be the case again. Someone asked me yesterday if I was feeling like normal again. I said, "Whatever normal is...I don't think I know anymore." I don't feel the same, but I don't feel bad. Things are just different.  I guess this is just part of the mental process of dealing with all of this. I don't know if it is being diagnosed with cancer or the aftermath of that diagnosis. I'm just tired of feeling different. I'm tired of being the focus of attention. I want things to be normal...whatever that is. "Seek the LORD and his strength; seek his presence continu...